the truth is, I feel a little lost right now. It’s a lot of little things thrown together. I am unsteady and unsure, and that Unrest, remember that? It’s trying to creep its way back up around my lungs and into my heart, and I don’t want a bit of it, You know that. I feel a little lost, but I am in Love, and tomorrow is Your birthday and I want to give You everything. But things are really messed up right now in some ways, you know all the cobwebs and dust bunnies in the corners of my soul. You deserve a perfect dwelling place. I don’t want to sound like I’m trying too hard, just want to be real for You.
You were content to sleep in a filthy manger, and I think You’ll be happy to stay with me, even if the room I have for You is a little cluttered. But when You come, we can clean it up together and You can stay as long as You like.
I feel a little lost right now. But tomorrow I’ll follow the star wherever it takes me, and I will find You where you sleep, and play my drum, and sing in a voice that cracks and look at You with blurry tear-filled eyes, and I will love You and receive You.
I feel a little lost right now. You can show me where to go.